This is a looooooong ( I'm sorry in advance) intro to how I came to be here
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Origins
I'm a (just turned) 20 year old guy from the UK... About two years ago (mid 2010) - I don't really know why, but I felt like getting into top shape... I was never overweight at all really, but wasn't in "great" (washboard abs) shape...
So I went on a really strict (not so strict initially) diet, which started with eliminating sweets and chocolate, then bread and more (I used the "a moment on the hips a life time on the hips" saying until I found it easier to resist
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I then started calorie (and carb and fat) counting everything, I had bought weighing scales, and started to eat different meals to my family. I had no more than 7 or 8 foods I would happily eat...
All this alongside jogging for 40 odd minutes daily... It became addictive.
I managed this for half a year or so, I lost tons of fat, and did feel good about myself.. I wasn't starving myself - I was still eating enough food, just micromanaging everything...
Uni - And that Chicken
I packed up and left to go to Uni that September... As you can imagine, I was unable to keep the micromanaging up... I remember my first binge.. My flatmates and I had cooked a MASSIVE sunday roast for us and the guys in the surrounding flats... And when they all left I literally stuffed myself with the remains of the roast chicken....
The bingeing had begun.
In between binging (
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I tried everything from a carb free diet, to an all carb diet. No eating after 3pm, no eating before 6pm. Eating in a 1 hour window, eating in a 4 hour window.. Only eating at a table (in order to monitor my intake).. Everything....
Towards the end of the school year I had settled on not eating anything after 3/4 pm.... I managed to keep it up for a few months of the end of year and holiday.
But, as you can imagine, it's wasn't easy to live life when you eat nothing after 3pm... I actually found eating that way easy, I was eating everything (healthy and notso healthy) again, wasn't counting calories, and my weight was finally stable.
I never really binged. But I was sick of worrying about events that may come up after 3pm, or making up excuses to my parents or friends. Eventually I gave that one up before returning to Uni last September... A few weeks in and the binging had continued... It was happening 2 or 3 times a week.
I was constantly bloated in the face- which made me feel worse and binge more.
I again tried everything... Buying my food on a daily basis which could amount to no more than £3 pounds a day, even only eating when hungry (not as easy as it sounds)...
The bingeing and food obsession made the school year pretty miserable.. And I become quite isolated from people as a result..
Reinhard and the bulletin board
I came back home for the summer this June.. And soon after (whilst searching for a new diet to hopefully click (searching forums and websites for diets had pretty much become my life)) found No S...
I had actually seen it months before and had dismissed it straight away as I didn't think it could work for a binger.. I typed "No S reviews" into google, and was disuaded by a few posts on a few sites. A few days later I had another look, delved into the site a bit deeper, and liked the funny tone used by Reinhard on the main page... I gave it a go.
What really saved me was finding these discussion boards.. Without them, I would have given up on my first WILD s-day, or when I got stuck... But most of my early questions were answered..
I'm happy to say I've been (vanilla) No-sing for 2 and a half months... My S- Days have mostly been pretty wild (actually very wild
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But during the week, I have felt a peace that I haven't felt for two years or so...
The dilemma
My N-days have been perfect for the whole time, absoloutely no red days... Until yesterday...
After dinner, I don't know what it was, but I felt a binge coming, and did nothing to stop it. Lying in my bed (having eaten 2 bowls of cereal (I don't even like cereal) a packet of 12 or 13 biscuits a couple packs of crisps and more) I vowed to get back on track today, and was fine but after lunch binged (not so much) again...
Lately my breakfast has been leaving my even more hungry than I was before I ate it.. And the gap between Breakfast and lunch has been getting smaller and smaller.. Lately it's been breakfast at 10 lunch at 12.30 (by which point I'm famished).
This has made me panic and I think this may be the cause of my sudden binge.. Either this or it could be the fact that I'd been thinking about introducing mods for my S-days this weekend.. Maybe that made me panic. Maybe it was just nothing but t=an old urge.
Whatever it is.. I know there is no way I can leave No S... I felt free, and was back to my old self...
Just get to the point already
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I want to ask... Do you think possibly eating two meals a day would be a better idea to try (as in: Brunch at 11 ish (slightly awkward) and dinner at normal time) or (what I'm leaning towards right now) 3 meals (as in: lunch at normal time as my first meal, dinner at normal time as my second, and a late meal at 10 or 11 as my final meal...) I havent started the school year yet, but wont be sleeping until midnight, and will be waking around 7- 8 am most mornings.
Or should I just suck it up and get my act together like it was before, and ride out the hunger...
It's the same regardless of what type of food I eat for breakfast, an hour later I'm hungrier than before and quite irritable...It wasn't like this at the beginning, but has felt like this lately.
Up until yesterday I'd had 100% green days, so the habit of not snacking or seconds or sweets is already in place..
Maybe I should just pretend this set back never happened or maybe it's a sign, I don't know
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But I've done a bit of research and found that the Spanish often actually eat as late as midnight in the summer..
I quite worried that making the wrong decision now could derail everything... But I guess I'm not so much asking but seeking confirmation that eating lunch, dinner and my late (possibly mini) meal isn't a silly thing to do..
I kind of gave it a go tonight.. I managed to pull myself together before I had dinner.. and then at 10pm had a small 1-plate meal... And I actually do feel quite good before bed...
The real test will come tomorrow before lunch time.. I guess I'll have a good idea whether it will work or or not by then..
Thank you for reading this loooooong (Once again I'm sorry) post, and for any replies
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You guys have been an inspiration for me. And thank you Reinhard!
P.S:
I've stopped visiting this site during the day, because I'd been spending too long just browsing the threads (sometimes for a few hours a day) so I only visit at night right before bed... I have work (bartender) at 8 tomorrow night though and don't finish till 2am.. So (assuming I have three meals) I'll probably have my dinner at around 6- 6.30pm and my "last meal" when I get back shortly before I go to bed, and let you guys know how things went...
My last meal obviously wont be as late during the week as I'll be sleeping at normal time.