I don't generally run a check-in thread, because I usually follow the rules pretty well. But today I didn't, and I want to get back on track FAST. So I am posting in the belief that "admitting failure is the first step to containing it."
The culprits:
I have a trail mix in the house that I love. Technically okay with meals, but it calls to me.
Then we had a meal I really don't care for... it's a favorite of the rest of the family, so we eat it on occasion, but I don't like it. (Hot dogs. Blech.)
And I had exercised, and worked hard today, and it was a stressful day... blah, blah, blah. The upshot is that I started with a 1/4 cup serving of trail mix, telling myself that it would fit on my plate... and ended eating about half the bag (probably 2 cups), nowhere close to dinner. And then, in a classic fit of "I've blown it anyway," I had 2 granola bars - I'd made some homemade ones that taste great.
And now...I am stopping. The binge is OVER, and I'll get back on track tomorrow.
End of whine. I hate admitting that I blew it this badly, but it's the reality.
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Last edited by kccc on Sat Mar 17, 2007 11:30 am, edited 2 times in total.
My online confession stopped yesterday's binge. And today was better. 
Dinner was an easy recipe that we all like... the "Terrific Tower of Tortillas"
Mix together:
1 can pinto beans (plain ones, no seasonings added)
1 can corn (I prefer frozen, so guestimate the amount)
1 cup salsa, whatever "heat" you prefer
Other ingredients: 5 small flour tortillas, about 1 to 1.5 cups grated Cheddar cheese.
In a round cake pan, layer small flour tortillas (the ones that just fit a cake pan), bean mix, and cheese, ending with beans and cheese. Cover with foil, and bake at 425F for about 20 minutes, removing foil during last five minutes. Cut into wedges to serve.
Makes 4 very hearty servings. Add a salad, and you've got a quick, easy, cheap, and reasonably healthy dinner.
Dinner was an easy recipe that we all like... the "Terrific Tower of Tortillas"
Mix together:
1 can pinto beans (plain ones, no seasonings added)
1 can corn (I prefer frozen, so guestimate the amount)
1 cup salsa, whatever "heat" you prefer
Other ingredients: 5 small flour tortillas, about 1 to 1.5 cups grated Cheddar cheese.
In a round cake pan, layer small flour tortillas (the ones that just fit a cake pan), bean mix, and cheese, ending with beans and cheese. Cover with foil, and bake at 425F for about 20 minutes, removing foil during last five minutes. Cut into wedges to serve.
Makes 4 very hearty servings. Add a salad, and you've got a quick, easy, cheap, and reasonably healthy dinner.
KCCC
Hi, KCCC. I'm not one of those Pollyanna positive thinkers, but you might want to consider changing the title of your thread!
A failure every now and then is only human. You've nipped it in the bud. Good foryou!
A failure every now and then is only human. You've nipped it in the bud. Good foryou!
Kevin
1/13/2011-189# :: 4/21/2011-177# :: Goal-165#
"Respecting the 4th S: sometimes."
1/13/2011-189# :: 4/21/2011-177# :: Goal-165#
"Respecting the 4th S: sometimes."
Maybe so, Kevin. I don't usually track online, and had gotten to the point where I thought "negative tracking" was good enough.
But... even though Reinhard recommends it after having reached stability in an endeavor... I don't like it. It focuses on the negative.
Of course, maybe I'm feeling this way because I have another slip-up to report. Two in one week... not good. Not as good as I've been doing. (Ah, hubris will get ya every time.)
So. Friday was a failure. Good until the afternoon, when I came home early at my "low point" of the day. I'm sole parent this week - hubby is traveling - and it's gotten a little long. Too much stress at work. Yada yada. I ate snacks (1/2 cup trail mix; the last home-made granola bar)... then after supper broke out the Dove chocolate eggs. Full "I've blown it anyway." (But, in retrospect... a mild binge compared to ones before I did No-S. That's a comforting thought.)
I've thought about making Fridays an S day, or at least Friday nights. It's a hard night because I'm in full "I deserve" mode. But the key is to learn not to address those feelings with food, right?
Today is an S-day. I need it.
But... even though Reinhard recommends it after having reached stability in an endeavor... I don't like it. It focuses on the negative.
Of course, maybe I'm feeling this way because I have another slip-up to report. Two in one week... not good. Not as good as I've been doing. (Ah, hubris will get ya every time.)
So. Friday was a failure. Good until the afternoon, when I came home early at my "low point" of the day. I'm sole parent this week - hubby is traveling - and it's gotten a little long. Too much stress at work. Yada yada. I ate snacks (1/2 cup trail mix; the last home-made granola bar)... then after supper broke out the Dove chocolate eggs. Full "I've blown it anyway." (But, in retrospect... a mild binge compared to ones before I did No-S. That's a comforting thought.)
I've thought about making Fridays an S day, or at least Friday nights. It's a hard night because I'm in full "I deserve" mode. But the key is to learn not to address those feelings with food, right?
Today is an S-day. I need it.
Two S-days, which were No-S-like except (a major "except") for the PB cookies I made and ate over two days.
Before No-S, it would have been one.
I'm liking the feeling that I am training my habits. Even the "failures" include less food than a binge used to, and the "off" days are more reasonable.
Back on N-days today. So far, so good.
Before No-S, it would have been one.
I'm liking the feeling that I am training my habits. Even the "failures" include less food than a binge used to, and the "off" days are more reasonable.
Back on N-days today. So far, so good.
S-days are "calming down" a bit. Saturday was sort of an "N-day with a treat." I've heard of other folks doing that, but that hasn't always been my pattern. I usually take FULL advantage of my S-days.
Sunday was a bit more junk-laden, but again, at a level that was better-than-past-history.
And getting back on this morning has been a piece of cake... No-S is just my normal eating pattern, and I don't even really think about it.
I like that.
On Sunday, we had a "Fourth Sunday Lunch" at church. One group signs up to bring food, and everyone who wants to eat pays a reasonable amount for their plate. It's a fund-raiser for the church as well as socializing time. This Sunday there were some killer chocolate cookies that I really liked, and wanted the recipe for. Turns out the woman who brought them "messed up the recipe" (her phrase) by putting in too much chocolate, and tried to salvage them but thought "they weren't sweet enough." I loved them. Thought they were like European cookies, which are richer but not as sweet. And I think No-S has shifted my taste-buds in that direction. She did write down what she did, so I plan to get that recipe for future S days.
Sunday was a bit more junk-laden, but again, at a level that was better-than-past-history.
And getting back on this morning has been a piece of cake... No-S is just my normal eating pattern, and I don't even really think about it.
I like that.
On Sunday, we had a "Fourth Sunday Lunch" at church. One group signs up to bring food, and everyone who wants to eat pays a reasonable amount for their plate. It's a fund-raiser for the church as well as socializing time. This Sunday there were some killer chocolate cookies that I really liked, and wanted the recipe for. Turns out the woman who brought them "messed up the recipe" (her phrase) by putting in too much chocolate, and tried to salvage them but thought "they weren't sweet enough." I loved them. Thought they were like European cookies, which are richer but not as sweet. And I think No-S has shifted my taste-buds in that direction. She did write down what she did, so I plan to get that recipe for future S days.
Life stress has shot up lately, and I'm noticing that my S-days this last weekend were "junkier" as a result. The stress-eating habit is not gone...yet.
Thank goodness for N-days, and enough practice that getting back to normal isn't even very hard. And thank goodness for S-days, so I can have some junk with no guilt.
Today I realized that I haven't weighed in a long time, and have no idea what my weight might be... and it doesn't really matter. I know I'm not overboard, despite the S day craziness. Clothes fit okay. In fact, I pulled out some summer stuff recently, and things that were tight last year are comfy or even loose now.
Life stress may be generally high, but it's nice to be at peace in this area.
Thank goodness for N-days, and enough practice that getting back to normal isn't even very hard.
And thank goodness for S-days, so I can have some junk with no guilt. Today I realized that I haven't weighed in a long time, and have no idea what my weight might be... and it doesn't really matter. I know I'm not overboard, despite the S day craziness. Clothes fit okay. In fact, I pulled out some summer stuff recently, and things that were tight last year are comfy or even loose now.
Life stress may be generally high, but it's nice to be at peace in this area.
No leftovers today... or rather, I froze them b/c I'm going to be out of town next week and want to leave my slightly-kitchen-impaired husband something he can make besides Mac-n-Cheese.
I miss my leftovers. Backstop: Multigrain bagel and cheese. On the plus side, I bought a veggie tray for company this weekend, and have a lot left, so it was easy to pack my obligatory veggies/fruits.
Have fallen into a pattern with fruits/veggies. Breakfast must have at least one (two is better), lunch at least two, dinner at least two and preferably three. Though I generally don't add "rules" to No-S, that "routine" helps a lot, and really isn't hard to follow.
I miss my leftovers. Backstop: Multigrain bagel and cheese. On the plus side, I bought a veggie tray for company this weekend, and have a lot left, so it was easy to pack my obligatory veggies/fruits.
Have fallen into a pattern with fruits/veggies. Breakfast must have at least one (two is better), lunch at least two, dinner at least two and preferably three. Though I generally don't add "rules" to No-S, that "routine" helps a lot, and really isn't hard to follow.
Isn't it strange how eating sortof falls into place on this way of eating? There's no food plan and no recipes but it seems like most everyone begins including more fruits and veggies in their meals. I know I have.
{FarmerHal} ...previously Shamrockmommy...
Vanilla NoS... Making good habits.
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Vanilla NoS... Making good habits.
Restart 12/2015, size 22
3/2016 size 18
1/2018 size 18
Tiffani, you're right. I think this way of eating naturally draws you to healthier foods. But not as rules, as routines. (I think of the latter as much more flexible, and growing more naturally out of what-you're-doing-anyway.)
Right now, I'm at a conference for the whole week. No-S is both harder and easier for me. Harder because I don't have my "routines" in place here, or at least the supports for them. Easier because I don't look at all the incredible snack food surrounding me - it lowers the internal dialog around food. (My "plates" can get kind of big, though - gotta watch that!)
Right now, I'm at a conference for the whole week. No-S is both harder and easier for me. Harder because I don't have my "routines" in place here, or at least the supports for them. Easier because I don't look at all the incredible snack food surrounding me - it lowers the internal dialog around food. (My "plates" can get kind of big, though - gotta watch that!)
Check in while I'm at the conference.
Breakfast - WW mini-bagel, cheese, banana (I found a convenience stores)
Two lattes during the morning. (Colder here than I'm used to.)
Lunch - Tuscan salad - greens, mozzarella, tomatoes, basil, balsamic vinaigrette, plus a slice of bread.
Dinner - Chicken/spinach/mushroom wrap sandwich, dried fruit (a little much).
Breakfast - WW mini-bagel, cheese, banana (I found a convenience stores)
Two lattes during the morning. (Colder here than I'm used to.)
Lunch - Tuscan salad - greens, mozzarella, tomatoes, basil, balsamic vinaigrette, plus a slice of bread.
Dinner - Chicken/spinach/mushroom wrap sandwich, dried fruit (a little much).
Okay, I didn't keep track at the conference, though I did a decent job of No-S'ing.
Walked a lot too, and came home expecting to have dropped some weight. Ah, beware of expectations! Nope, at the top of my range.
Hm...
Could be gained muscle. Could be that my "plates" were more like "platters" (they were). Could be that I'm not really sure how much I weighed before I left.
I will admit to being bummed.
Then I got over it and got back with the program. I trust the process over time.
Walked a lot too, and came home expecting to have dropped some weight. Ah, beware of expectations! Nope, at the top of my range.
Hm...
Could be gained muscle. Could be that my "plates" were more like "platters" (they were). Could be that I'm not really sure how much I weighed before I left.
I will admit to being bummed.
Then I got over it and got back with the program. I trust the process over time.
After the conference I was sick.
Then it was my husband's birthday.
Now... I'm back on track as of TODAY. But I can tell I've backslid, and am having to be extra-attentive.
6:45 and all is well...
One strategy... on my "punch card" (sort of a to-do), instead of just writing "No-S" like I usually do, I wrote out each No S. No sweets. No snacks. No seconds. So I can cross off EACH one if (when!) I do them all.
It's ridiculously satisfying.
Then it was my husband's birthday.
Now... I'm back on track as of TODAY. But I can tell I've backslid, and am having to be extra-attentive.
6:45 and all is well...
One strategy... on my "punch card" (sort of a to-do), instead of just writing "No-S" like I usually do, I wrote out each No S. No sweets. No snacks. No seconds. So I can cross off EACH one if (when!) I do them all.
It's ridiculously satisfying.
Back on track this week.
Hard day yesterday. On the weekend, I made a homemade cake for my husband's birthday. Made it on Sunday, and after licking an icing beater, really didn't want much cake.
By Tuesday, I did. Especially since I cut it for my husband and son. I confess to one teaspoon of icing from the edge of the cake plate, but stopped.
I am wondering if I could freeze a piece for Saturday. (He already had a "bought cake" on his birthday, b/c I was sick. And I had a piece of that, so I've done my "S-day" for his birthday.)
But. Nothing... including my very own killer home-made cake that I hardly ever make... NOTHING tastes as sweet as success.
So there.
Hard day yesterday. On the weekend, I made a homemade cake for my husband's birthday. Made it on Sunday, and after licking an icing beater, really didn't want much cake.
By Tuesday, I did. Especially since I cut it for my husband and son. I confess to one teaspoon of icing from the edge of the cake plate, but stopped.
I am wondering if I could freeze a piece for Saturday. (He already had a "bought cake" on his birthday, b/c I was sick. And I had a piece of that, so I've done my "S-day" for his birthday.)
But. Nothing... including my very own killer home-made cake that I hardly ever make... NOTHING tastes as sweet as success.
So there.
Hey KCCC! My husband's birthday, as well as my son's and mother-in-law's is this weekend. Thankfully we will only have one cake! Since I am new to No S and not sure about how I will react in situations like this, (after all, all I have to go on is how I reacted in the days before No S and that wasn't good!) I think I'll bake a cake that I don't like too much. Is that bad?
mimi
mimi
Discovered NoS: April 16, 2007
Restarted once again: July 14, 2011
Quitting is not an option...
If you start to slip, tie a knot and hang on!
Remember that good enough is... good enough.
Strive for progress, not perfection!
Restarted once again: July 14, 2011
Quitting is not an option...
If you start to slip, tie a knot and hang on!
Remember that good enough is... good enough.
Strive for progress, not perfection!
There is a piece of cake with my name on it tucked away in the fridge for Saturday.
I did have "seconds" tonight - but sort of planned. A buffet meal where I wasn't sure how many people would be there, and didn't want to be rude. (Plus I was at the front of the line.) I took less than I really wanted, and decided I would get a little more if there was enough. And there was. So, sort of borderline.
Other than that, a good week.
I did have "seconds" tonight - but sort of planned. A buffet meal where I wasn't sure how many people would be there, and didn't want to be rude. (Plus I was at the front of the line.) I took less than I really wanted, and decided I would get a little more if there was enough. And there was. So, sort of borderline.
Other than that, a good week.
Well, I ate my cake on Friday. Plus a second piece.
And then I ate my way through the weekend (but those were S-days).
I have realized I eat when I feel that "life is unfair" (I had to work on the weekend). Sort of a "so there!" defiant attitude. What I now think of as "mis-guided self-care."
Hm... what to do with that piece of information...
And then I ate my way through the weekend (but those were S-days).
I have realized I eat when I feel that "life is unfair" (I had to work on the weekend). Sort of a "so there!" defiant attitude. What I now think of as "mis-guided self-care."
Hm... what to do with that piece of information...
At a conference/workshop, and came in on Sat, so was in "S-day mode." Having trouble making the transition back today.
Breaktime in the afternoon was my undoing. A cookie and a couple of pieces of cheese.
I left the chocolate-iced brownies, though... And am back on track.
Tomorrow I think I'll get my water and leave the breakroom.
Breaktime in the afternoon was my undoing. A cookie and a couple of pieces of cheese.
I left the chocolate-iced brownies, though... And am back on track.
Tomorrow I think I'll get my water and leave the breakroom.
No more snacks at the conference, but I realized I really broke "no seconds" at dinner the last night (Tuesday) of the conference. Was with a group, someone ordered appetizers to share, the salad came separately, the entree was delicious... you get the picture.
I don't eat out much, and usually only on S-days. So, I'm suddenly aware this is an area where I'm low on skills/practice.
I don't eat out much, and usually only on S-days. So, I'm suddenly aware this is an area where I'm low on skills/practice.
You know, once I started posting failures I realized that I've had a lot lately. Most totally stress-related.
Last Friday there was a party with lots of food. I ate it. Cake, jelly beans. Once I started, I was binging.
Saturday and Sunday were S-days on vacation. Was still there Monday, so took that as an S-day. (Even after I traveled home that day - a mistake.)
Got back on the wagon Tuesday, and have done well since then. But all the slip-ups have added up on the scale, which is a bit of a bummer. I am trying to ignore it and work on the basics again - have broken out each "No-S" on my to-do list, which oddly helps me focus on it.
Time... habit-building... acknowledging failure without wallowing in it... no "make-ups," just do better next time....
Last Friday there was a party with lots of food. I ate it. Cake, jelly beans. Once I started, I was binging.
Saturday and Sunday were S-days on vacation. Was still there Monday, so took that as an S-day. (Even after I traveled home that day - a mistake.)
Got back on the wagon Tuesday, and have done well since then. But all the slip-ups have added up on the scale, which is a bit of a bummer. I am trying to ignore it and work on the basics again - have broken out each "No-S" on my to-do list, which oddly helps me focus on it.
Time... habit-building... acknowledging failure without wallowing in it... no "make-ups," just do better next time....
Thanks, Reinhard.
I did make it Tu-Fri just fine on No-S. Today is an S-day. I intend to take it, but keep it "reasonable."
I've noticed that Friday evenings are hard, b/c work is so stressful now that I want "treat" myself at the end of the week. I am looking for non-food treats, and being extra-aware on Fridays.
Looking back - most of my "slips" have been when the usual routine is interrupted. Conferences, travel, that kind of thing. So that's another area to watch. And exercise often gets more irregular then as well, which compounds the issue.
One good thing is that I am not panicking or beating myself up about the rise in weight (about 5 pounds total, 3 over the "top of my range"). I am focusing on habits, not self-blame. I am looking at what I CAN do better from here. I can learn from the past, without wallowing in regret... It is what it is, and I am making choices in the present.
I did make it Tu-Fri just fine on No-S. Today is an S-day. I intend to take it, but keep it "reasonable."
I've noticed that Friday evenings are hard, b/c work is so stressful now that I want "treat" myself at the end of the week. I am looking for non-food treats, and being extra-aware on Fridays.
Looking back - most of my "slips" have been when the usual routine is interrupted. Conferences, travel, that kind of thing. So that's another area to watch. And exercise often gets more irregular then as well, which compounds the issue.
One good thing is that I am not panicking or beating myself up about the rise in weight (about 5 pounds total, 3 over the "top of my range"). I am focusing on habits, not self-blame. I am looking at what I CAN do better from here. I can learn from the past, without wallowing in regret... It is what it is, and I am making choices in the present.
Another slip. 
Went home early. Because of my husband's schedule, dinner was late. I think if I'd been at work, it wouldn't have been an issue. But when I got cheese and crackers for the kids around 5 (a weak time for me anyway), I got some for me as well. Followed by rye bread and butter. (All starches, I note. Life is stressful right now, which is part of the urge to eat.)
So, a big binge-like snack. I ate so much I didn't want supper. Just ate a little fruit, since I knew I hadn't had enough that day.
My Sunday was very binge-like as well, and I am wondering if I simply can't stick to No-S at my house. I don't like that thought.
At least I didn't eat sweets, and stopped eating on my own (instead of continuing until bedtime). Still, it's hard to differentiate between HAVING a failure and BEING one today.
Went home early. Because of my husband's schedule, dinner was late. I think if I'd been at work, it wouldn't have been an issue. But when I got cheese and crackers for the kids around 5 (a weak time for me anyway), I got some for me as well. Followed by rye bread and butter. (All starches, I note. Life is stressful right now, which is part of the urge to eat.)
So, a big binge-like snack. I ate so much I didn't want supper. Just ate a little fruit, since I knew I hadn't had enough that day.
My Sunday was very binge-like as well, and I am wondering if I simply can't stick to No-S at my house. I don't like that thought.
At least I didn't eat sweets, and stopped eating on my own (instead of continuing until bedtime). Still, it's hard to differentiate between HAVING a failure and BEING one today.
Failure on Friday - a big party. I would have taken it as an S-day if I hadn't been feeling that I needed to get back on track. In hindsight, might have been better to take it without guilt.
I did fine at the party itself... but before bedtime I snacked on the "doggie bag" sent home.
No sweets, but definitely seconds/snacks.
I did fine at the party itself... but before bedtime I snacked on the "doggie bag" sent home.
No sweets, but definitely seconds/snacks.