I'm eating out of lonliness, frustration, worry, boredom.
DH is gone a lot with his job (navy) and I am stuck here very far from family. I think this latest trigger is my good friend's dh is being transferred (navy also) and so that takes her and her daughter, who is my 4 yr old's friend away.
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I've had a hard time making friends here in MD, for some reason. The people here just are not friendly to military.
Anyway, so I eat.
I've eaten up from my goal weight which I made this past christmas of 218 and now back up to 223.
Top that with my immune/joint problem (ankylosing spondylitis) flare up and I've backed off the exercise (biking/jogging/walking) as well.
UGH.
I'm very frustrated. Was talking wiht a friend today who is doing weight watchers and I found myself browsing ww website but it's just SO much fuss.
The thing is... I KNOW how to eat well. It seems like when I wake up in the morning, if I skip breakfast, then I generally don't have a huge issue with snacking that day. If I start the day with breakfast, I just don't stop.
For instance, I'll have an egg, a piece of toast and some soysage. And then I'll have a granola bar, and then dig into the chips and... on and on. Then lunch arrives, whether or not I'm hungry, I eat that too and then I usually graze up to supper (again, not hungry!) eat that too and then insist on dessert and again a late night snack.
I've fallen into my old habits! UGH. It's like I've totally said Screw It to my determination and sensibility.
Monday starts a new N day. No SNacks, No Seconds (thankfully at least at meal times this has stuck with me) and NO SWEETS!! WIthout paying $10 a week for weight watchers weigh ins and special (over processed) microwave foods. Yuck.
I can do this.
I hope!
Thanks for listening. Feels good to get this all out!