I wanted to continue 3 meals yesterday (Saturday) but maybe add a sweet. It just didn't work. It's like I knew I had freedom and took advantage of it to the fullest force. I just went totally out of whack.
While I was waiting to pick up my friend around 9:30 pm, I looked in the fridge and saw the chicken my mom had made earlier (its breaded and fried in oil). She rarely makes it but it looked good so I had one. I only had one drink out. When I got home about 3 a.m. I had to keep telling myself NOT to eat...and I toyed back and forth with the idea (think devil on one shoulder, angel on the other). Devil won.
I binged like no tomorrow. I didn't even feel that full. This morning I just wanted to kick myself, it's like I did it unconsciously. I felt guilty eating this morning but I was actually hungry. I had one frozen waffle with syrup, 1/2 a bagel (one half with pb & j; the other with butter) and a small apple. And I just devoured it. I thought I could eat so much more but when finished I was good.
I just don't know where this eating monster is coming from. Should I just accept that I will stumble in the beginning? Should I modify the rules so I don't really have "S" days and if I have a sweet once in awhile on any given day its okay?
Oh so confused. I am a mess! But still very positive! I know this will get better
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