6/3/2010
No S:
SUCCESS
Morningmulti:
SUCCESS
15minbeachbod: EXEMPT
I weighed myself today. I'm down another 0.5 lbs. I'm not even sure if that's real weight loss or some other factor. How do I feel about it? I feel fine. No disappointment, but not really any joy either, I'm pretty much neutral. Why? I feel there are alot of good things about my current weight 1) I feel healthy, happy and comfortable 2) I can enjoy eating and indulge on the weekend without having to count or feel guilty 3) I'm not skinny by any means but I'm no longer heavy either, just average 4) I fit into my clothes well (no muffin tops, difficulty breathing or a feeling I need to "hide") and can find clothes in stores that fits and looks good. Bad things about where I'm at right now? 1) technicallly I'm still a couple of pounds over the BMI range of "healthy" for my height, 2) I don't look like a super model
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3) I can't think of anything else--I'm pretty satisfied.
Future plans? Right now I feel like I'm looking at a balance. Could I eat less and exercise more and probably lose more weight? Yes. Would I need to sacrifice some of my happiness to do it? Probably yes. The question is do I want to? On the other hand, is there a way for me to reduce my calories in a moderate, humane way that I won't really notice very much? Possibly. I could probably do it if I decrease my dinner portion a little (have 3/4 of a plate instead of a full plate) and do some sort of S day moderation (maybe negative tracking? or limit the number of "S events" per weekend I'd have to figure out a good number-4?). Neither of these two mods sound very painful. 3/4 isn't that much less than 1, and 4 S events sounds reasonable, I think I have probably 4-8 per weekend right now. Alright here's what I'm going to do: 1) listen to the mods podcasts 2) try one or two mods until my next weigh in (probably July 2) and see if it promotes weight loss. For the long term: if I am still this weight at my October weigh in I'll declare myself in the maintenance phase.
Later...
Wow I just hit my second page, that's cool!
Anyways, still thinking about mods. I listened to the second mod pod cast and I think it's not such a great idea to modify S days. I think that sense of freedom I get on S days is a big part of my enjoyment of eating this way and that it could easily backfire if I change it. If I start having "failures" on S days that I can see it spiraling into chaos really quickly. So I'm down to 3/4 plates on N-days. However, I had another thought. Maybe the answer isn't to reduce calories. This mod would be a "results mod" as Reinhard put it. Maybe the right thing to do is a "compliance mod." Let's face it, 15minbeachbod is having some serious compliance issues. As far as I see it my biggest problem is lack of flexibility. For example, the last two days I've been sick so I felt like 15minbeachbod wasn't the best idea. Sometimes on Friday nights I'm reallly tired and don't feel like it, or I have some social event/ people over/ dinner out that makes it a problem. On the other hand, on the weekend I'm rarely busy and could easily find 15 minutes to exercise without it being a big deal. Usually if I think about 15minbeachbod on the weekend I don't do it because I'm supposed to be "resting." What if I make a 15minbeachbod goal of 5/7 days per week? If I don't get to it during the week I can do it on the weekend. Pros 1) Flexibility 2) Less failures 3) I'll be less stressed about 15minbeachbod
Cons 1) Decreases "urgency" 2) Harder to establish habit 3) Could totally fail and I won't do it on the weekend AND be less likely to do it during the week
Any mod is dangerous. The 3/4 plate mod could mess up No S, which would be unfortunate because I currently have a high level of sucess. The weekend 15minbeachbod mod couldn't possibly mess up 15minbeachbod because it is in trouble already.
I looked in the mirror at myself this morning. I am happy. I don't see fat or 100 things that need improvement like I used to, I see myself, curvy and healthy. I don't feel embarassed anymore and I don't worry about embarassing the people I'm with because of my size. I don't think of myself as "the fat one" or "the fat sister." I don't feel threated my thin people anymore because I feel good about myself and have stopped comparing myself to others.
I think I'm going to go with the 15minbeachbod mod. I feel that that the goal of that one is to improve my health. The 3/4 plate mod is just to lose weight, which I'm not even very motivated to do. Perhaps I'll change my mind next month or in the future, maybe not. Right now, I feel like this is the right thing to do.